Fire: Falling Away

I am so excited about my Guest Contributor this week! It’s my baby sis Jessica Starks! Future bestselling author, she is currently writer for Love, Girl’s magazine and Gossip and Gab. She has her own blog, The pen and the Needle, (click the link to check it out) and she recently got word that a publisher is interested in publishing her first manuscript! Not only that, but she is a young, anointed woman of God, and I am extremely proud of her. So watch out for her world! Thank you Jupee (that’s what i call her) for your contribution!

Anybody who knows me knows that I am a huge music fan. I’ll listen to virtually anything and have encountered some interesting things as a result. One of those encounters is the inspiration for this post.

I was listening to “Fire” by Vince Staples. At the time I had never heard of Vince Staples before, so I was intrigued to hear his music. At first the beat of the song caught me and he seemed to be a good rapper so I listened. Then I heard him say, “I’m prolly finna go to Hell anyway.”

…..I immediately stopped. I thought to myself, “Did he really just…..lemme look this up.”

My research led me to a horrible song and the sad case of a young man who basically knows where he is going.

My first issue with this song is that, because of the beat and his talent, young people are listening and repeating the words he is saying(I won’t post the lyrics because of all of the language; here is the link to the lyrics though. I’d advise you to read them before you continue reading). People nowadays don’t listen to lyrics anymore; all they hear is the beat. As long as they can dance to it, people could care less what is being said, and that is not wise at all.

 “Do you not understand that everything that goes into the mouth passes into the stomach, and is eliminated?”But the things that proceed out of the mouth come from the heart, and those defile the man. “For out of the heart come evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, slanders.” ~Matthew 15:17-19


We have to understand that, especially as Christians, we need to watch what we listen to. Music is one of the tools that Satan, who was over music before his rebellion and fall, uses to rage war on us. If he can get us hooked on the beat, the lyrics are irrelevant and we start to sing right along with the artist. The people who are listening and singing along with this song are saying, “I’m prolly finna go to Hell anyway.” They are speaking this out into the atmosphere,and that’s a dangerous thing(Proverbs 18:21).

The second issue I have is that the artist truly believes this. If you stopped and read the lyrics you understand what I mean. The last thing he says in the song struck me the most:

You dig your own grave when you [messin’] with the Lord

Catch a fade, probably finna go to Hell anyway

 It was reported that Staples doesn’t believe in God and despises religion. He came from a harsh background, surrounded by violence and tragedy. He just lives. He just feels like, since he knows he’s going to Hell, he might as well make it worth it, and that is just the saddest thing to me. He even tweeted, “[Guys] like me wasn’t made to go to Heaven.” How depressing is that?

It’s people like this that we need to pray for. No, we cannot make Staples believe and accept Jesus; each person has to make that decision on their own(Phillippians 2:12-13). There are so many people out here like this artist, who have lost or still haven’t found their faith in God, and Satan is just sitting back laughing at all of it. Saints, we need to pray like we have never prayed before! The world we live in is full of lost souls and it is up to us to do our parts to keep as many souls as we can out of the devil’s grasp.

AMEN! Jupee! (That’s my nickname for her). I always think of Tupac Shakur’s “Shed so Many Tears”, He says in one lyric, “I know my destiny is hell, where did I fail.” And as we all know, he is now deceased. That always makes me so sad, because now that he is dead, and especially the way he died, we do not know if he made his confession. We have to pray for God to send workers into the field. The harvest is plenty, but the laborers are few.  It’s praying time ya’ll! Time to get to work! Thanks again Jupee 🙂 Love ya!


The Loneliness

Good morning folks,

Today I am going to be really transparent with you. I have been doing deep introspection lately, just trying to deal with ME, face my issues…do what I have to do to improve myself. I have been reflecting on my relationship with God, my purpose, and my vision. Just doing some deep thinking. As I have been  on this journey, God has been revealing things to me about my character, deep rooted issues, and about my heart.  And man…the things he has revealed to me….wow.

Hand of Destiny

In life, one thing I am learning is that we all have to face harsh realities from time to time. We can go through life with the facade that everything is ok. When inside you are tore up. Well, I am at a point in my life where I am tired of wearing the facade. When I discover an issue, I am going to own up to it and deal with it so that I will be able to move on to the next thing. Not only does my life depend on it, but the lives of those who are assigned to my voice as far as leadership is concerned and my future husband and children. I want to be complete for myself and for them. I want to be in the place where God is most pleased with me.

There was a song by babyface that I really liked back in the day called the Loneliness. I thought about that title as I was writing this, because this is the latest thing that I have been dealing with…Loneliness. Now, if you know me, I’m not a poplar person…don’t care to be. I don’t mind being by myself, I actually like to be to myself at times, and I’m not desperate for attention. I know you are thinking, well you are not lonely then.  LOL. Yea, I have fooled myself by saying that. I actually have attained a busy loneliness (term used by my sister Gabby…:-) ). I am out here, doing things..trying to stay busy, so that I don’t deal with the loneliness that i feel on the inside. Life is changing all around me, and I feel alone in some ways, because some things aren’t happening for me just yet.  I do realize that everything happens in God’s timing…and I am ok with that, but I had to ask God yesterday, what do I do with this? How do I not be lonely? Why am I lonely


I realize that you can be in a room full of people and still be lonely. You can be in a relationship with someone and still be lonely.  The main thing that I had to realize was that my loneliness does not come from not having people around me…it comes from me not communing like I should with the God that lives within me. The Bible says in James 4:8-10 KJV:

“Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double-minded. Be afflicted and mourn and weep: let your laughter be turned to mourning and your joy to heaviness. Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.”

One thing that we don’t often realize is that we tend to operate out of the issues that we have. I watched the Iyanla, Fix my life reaction episode this weekend about the effects of being a fatherless son. Many of the men that were represented on the show had many children. Many of whom they were not connected with. It turns out that they were creating children with women….that they weren’t necessarily wanting to be connected to…but they connected with them physically to fill a void that they were missing on the inside. Alot of them were seeking love in the wrong places. She also talked with the women too…a lot of the women who dealt with these men were also fatherless daughters..and they were broken…looking to fill a void in their lives as well.

So I had to look at the voids that I was trying to fill in my life. No, I am not a fatherless daugther. I grew up with both parents. The voids that I realized I was trying to fill were self-worth. I wanted to be accepted, validated. I am so much more secure in myself now than I was 5 years ago, but I realize I still have some growing to do. Because if i didn’t then I wouldn’t still exhibit some of my current behaviors. I have been guilty of trying to fill a void with a man. I have made a man my whole world, only to lose him….and then I questioned myself…was I not good enough? Was I not pretty enough? Am I not thin enough? etc. Then I went on to allow men to come into my life, take advantage of me physically, and tear me apart emotionally. I stayed because I didn’t value myself, I didn’t know myself, and I didn’t want to be alone. But yet….I was still lonely.

I will continue on with Part 2 of the Loneliness tomorrow.

Much Agape,