A Divine Connection

Today I thought that I would shine the light on my best friend in the whole wide world Tisa. We have known each other since 2000. It is amazing how we were connected. We met at community college and I thought for a whole year that she was one of my suitemates, because she was there…ALL the time. I didn’t know until later that she actually had a room on another floor.

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She was cool, friendly, I can remember she had a car, a Blue Chevy citation, and she would give me and my cousin rides from time to time to go to get something to eat. As I started to get to know her a little better, but still not really (LOL), she would come visit me in my room and lay in my bed…all under my covers…and eat my food. LOL! I used to think…what is this girl doing….she is getting super comfortable…but I wouldn’t say anything. Later on I found out that I reminded her of her sister that was overseas in the military at the time. When I went around her folks…a lot of them told me I put them in mind of her sister as well.

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She had a sharp tongue at one point. Sometimes when she would tell you something, it would feel like a double-edged sword….LOL. Now it seems like we have switched roles…LOL! God began to work on her, and she got saved as she would put it ,”FOR REAL”, and it was on and popping from there. She was transformed.

Tisa is one of the most focused people I have met. I wish at times I were more like her, sometimes I feel all over the place! When she tells you she is going to do something, she does it. She is thoughtful, kind, a great listener, wise, sentimental, and very hospitable. Most of all, she is a God-fearing woman, a praying woman, and very sensitive to the spirit. Everything that she has set out to do, she has done. She joined the army, she got her education, she has traveled, and now she has opened her non-profit, Empowered for Life, Inc. (Check out her site and donate! http://www.empoweredforlifeinc.com/). #E4L!

We have been through a lot together. We have laughed, cried, been mad, road tripped, ministered, goofed around, and just chilled together…”Ole’ Teacake!” LOL! (inside joke). I couldn’t have asked God for a better best friend. I don’t know what I would do without her. She has blessed me so much. She is the epitome of what an asset is.

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Now, my bestie is about to get married, and that is going to shift our relationship a little, so the moments that I have been able to have with her this year has been extra bittersweet for me. I won’t necessarily hold the same place in her life anymore. That is how it is supposed to be though. We have prayed for this since we were 18 years old, and it brings me joy to see our prayer come to reality. God has blessed her with a man that loves her unconditionally. He is everything she needs and wants. God hooked her up!

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Tisa girl, I love you…I am proud of you, and I know that your dad is looking down on you and smiling from ear to ear. I know Glo is proud of you as well. When we met 14 years ago, we didn’t realize that we would be as tight as we are. I know that God divinely connected us, and for that I am so grateful. Some people are still looking for someone to call friend. You have became more than just my friend, you are my sister. You may go through your issues and problems, but you still manage to check on others and make sure they are ok. You have the heart of God. He has truly reduced you to love. I just wanted to express my appreciation for you publicly. My grandma always said, give people their flowers while they yet live. I know you are not necessarily a big fan of flowers….lol…but here’s yours.  Love you girl!

In His Abundant Love,

Miranda

My Engagement

“You are so special to me. You are one of a kind, irreplaceable. You have been through alot of things in your life. Things that have changed and molded you. The pressure has caused you to become a diamond. You are the apple of God’s eye, and you are the apple of my eye. You have such a great destiny. The gifts and talents that God placed in you are so awesome. You are a Queen, my queen, and I will treat you as such. You are beautiful, delicate, and precious. You are not only beautiful on the outside, you are beautiful on the inside. You are loving, caring, kind, sweet, and thoughtful. I will always have your back. I will always protect your heart. I will protect your body. I will nurture and protect your spirit. I will stay connected to the father, to help you grow spiritually. I will love you unconditionally, and forever. So today, I ask you for your hand. Will you Marry me?”

And I said…..YES!

Every woman has her dream engagement. Her dream engagement ring, etc. As I have stated before, I have been doing serious introspection. I have a desire to be married, but I have to ask myself, am I truly ready? I have to be real with myself, and realize that I am still a work in progress….I mean we all are, but there are certain things that we have to look at, before we even think about dating or being in a serious relationship with someone. One of the things that I have realized is that I first have to be in a serious relationship with God….and with myself. This is why I asked myself to marry me….let me explain further.

As God has been revealing certain things to me, my daddy isssues, my unforgiveness, my anger, my loneliness…I realized that in all of those issues, I went outside of God to try to fill those voids. In the process, I lost myself. I didn’t love myself, I didn’t value myself, I didn’t cherish myself. Some of the things that I have chosen to do in the past, were done to feel loved, or to try to gain someone’s love, the affection i was wanting and missing and even to feel good about myself. I have had my moments were I didn’t care. Moments where i was boasting in myself. But all the while inside, I was dying. I was hurting so bad, but I kept up a facade, where no one would know or even think that I was tore up.

I realized that because I didn’t love God like I should have, I wasn’t dedicated to Him like I should have been. And  because didn’t love myself, I couldn’t even be dedicated to myself. There is a saying when it comes to relationships that, If someone doesn’t love God, then they won’t know how to truly love you. This is so true in relationships and also with self. How will I learn to truly love myself, or see myself as God sees me, if I don’t build my relationship with Him and let Him pour his love into me? God is Love, and if I don’t know God…then I won’t know true Love for myself, nor when it comes from a significant other. Alot of times, this is why we settle.  We cannot recognize true love, because we are not in relationship with the Lover of our souls.

According to the Merriam-Webster Dictionary, dedicate means: to officially make (something) a place for honoring or remembering a person, event, etc. ; to devote to the worship of a divine being; specifically: to set apart to sacred uses wtih solemn rites; to commit to a goal or way of life.

Romans 12:1-2 (KJV) says:

I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.

And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

So today, I choose to make my body a place for honoring God, I devote myself to the worship of the Almighty God, Jehovah  and I will renew my mind daily so that I can reach the goals that God has for me. Today I charge you to take inventory of your life and do the same.

Engagement, according to the Merriam-Webster Dictionary means, An arrangement to meet or be present at a specified time and place; emotional involvement or commitment; the state of being in gear.

I proposed to myself today….and I accepted. So now, I am engaged….to myself. I am presenting my body as a living sacrifice, holy, and acceptable unto God, which is my reasonable service. God, I am your yielded vessel. Help me to be who you have called me to be. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

If you want to just talk, or if you would like to share your self-engagement story to be published on here, email me at abundantheart14@gmail.com.

In His Abundant Love,

Miranda